I BLOG WHEN I'M HAPPY

..and i don't when i'm not.

I noticed that my blogging decreased when i started university. Some might think this might be due to stress and heavy studying. But its not, because, looking back i realized that i didn't do alot. I didn't listen to the lectures, didn't watch the movies ( cuz basically i was studying film studies :/) and only did the obligatory papers. I hoped for my course to turn out better in the future, thats why i gave it a chance for the second semester. But it didn't get better. I even took some Lectures about Comics, and i didn't care about it at all. This depressed me so much, it made sad and angry and all out confused. I had not a bit of Passion for my course.

Thats why, i finally decided to stop.
I don't want to graduate leaving me with the feeling of not having learned something at all.

So here i am right now, sitting in front of my laptop writing emails to Advertising Agencies, asking for available Internship spots. Next Year, I am going to apply for design courses. Which is what i wanted to do ever since School. I just didn't go that way because i thought i was made for more, i was such an ego, i thought i had to go to University instead of "only" an art school.

Well fuck it i was stupid. I just want to feel happy with what i'm doing now.

And i feel incredibly happy and relieved about finally having decided what to do. Now i just need to proove my Mom and everyone else that i can do it.


So, to end my Sentitalk and to to excuse my absence from the Bloggasphere (sp??) i'll show you what i've been up to these last months  in a quick xiuxiu meit tu photocollage

1 + 2.Karneval | 3. playing with Makeup | 4. Doc Martens i got from Chani <3 | 5. before going to Düsseldorf | 6. Puris with Friends

 1. Makeup for the Beauty fair | 2. Daniela Katzenberger at the Beauty fair | 3. Cologne | 4. Mixtas | 5. Me

 1. Sushi with Boyfie | 2. Me & Daddy | 3. My new Hair & Mommy | 4. handmade B-day cake for mom | 5.Whats left of the cake

1. Dressing room at Divisoria | 2. Wicked Oreos | 3. Inuman on Mothersday | 4. Me & my Godchild Chloe | 5. Chloe Baby <3

The last set of pics were from the Philippines, we spontaneously flew over because my dear Uncle died. It was a very sad Trip, but i'm happy to have seen my family again.

If you still read this, well thanks for still checking out my blog. I may not be the hippest or most exciting person in the world to read about, but i still appreciate alot when people listen, or well..read what i have to say or want to show.

Thanks, till next post then.

SM Days,TONYMOLY,small Haul and Ootd

SM, actually stands for Shoe Mart, but over time that little shoe company turned into the Philippines biggest Shoppingmall factory!

...lol, i don't even know why i had to tell you this, i guess this is the trivia of the day?xD

New knowledge aside, these last two days i finally managed to do some shopping! On Sunday me and my cousins went to SM North Edsa, because - as much as i love SM Megamall- i haven't been to the Philippines LARGEST Mall yet! In fact, SM North Edsa i also Asias 4th largest shopping mall! (Thanks Wikipedia for the stats...wait up, but i'm not the only person who looks up mall in wikipedia right?xD)

Now, what did i think? "welll, its an SM" to be exact.

...and therefore it practically looks the same as any big SM Mall. ( except MoA, i think that one looks a tad bit different)

You can probably form a new country out of the Philippine Mall's total amount of squaremeters, yes, the Malls here are THAT BIG. So yes, i am proud to say that shopping here is truly a delight!

Anyway, the next day i followed my cousin to school and waited for her in SM Manila: Super small and quite a dissapointment for SM Malls, but compact enought to stroll around by yourself!

This is what i wore

Top: H&M |Jeans: Mango|Necklace: SIX| Belt and Bracelet: courtesy of Dear cousin :)

I was quite in a glee walking around the mall all by myself, since i never did that before in the Philippines. I could enter any store i want and could stay as long as i wanted without anyone bored and tired tagging along!

So with all the freedom i've got, i treated myself to some DIY froyo at TuttiFrutti

look at my creation!

seriously, i think i dumped everything i was craving for that moment into the cup xD

I actually thought it would feel awkward sitting there having a froyo all by yourself, but sitting there and watching the masses pass by (well, and watching them stare at you) was actually quite relaxing.

While shopping i mostly bought some Make up for my older cousin, because i haven't gotten her anything yet for her birthday last week, and also because it seems like she wants to get more into makeup now! (yay!)

So i went to this new Korean Cosmetics store called TONYMOLY that popped up in the Malls recently. I really like the stores flair, its like a matured etude house or something xD

So i got inside and the sales lady immediately talked to me, asking where i come from and stuff.

As usual, people would think that im either american or australian, its like they don't even come up with the idea that there are more than two countries with a caucasian population...

Anyways when i told her i come from germany, she went all "ohh i'm from germany too!" So naturally i asked her where exactly in germany she came from and she was just all like...

"Have you heard of europe? Thats where i come from!"

ugh. I immediately wanted t stop talking to her.

Ah well, excuse my short staff rant and let me show you some of the stuff i got for myself

• A pair of loose flowy shorts : SM department store
• Thin studded Belt: SM department store
• Upper Falsies: TONYMOLY
• Mintgreen Nail Polish: TONYMOLY
• Lower Falsies: Etude House

In fact, im going to try the Lashes and Nail polish today, and since my lenses already arrived too, you can expect more potd and reviews in the following post.

Thanks for reading!

Hello Philippines, Shellys here and ranting!

okay okay peoples,you might (or might not..) want to know : i changed locations!I had my Flight this Tuesday and am now residing in the ever tropic Philippine Islands!

Okay, nothing really special since i'm here like, twice a year...but this time im not going to stay here for 2 or 3 weeks, but for whooping 2 MONTHS!!!

and uhh.. well, usually i'd be happy about beeing able to spend so much time with my dear family, buuut things pretty much suck right now becauuuse

1. My Family is super Busy. My cousin i live with is at school til 9 pm and afterwards still has to do schoolwork.

2. I am super isolated. Me beeing the "americano" (people why dont you just get that im not american!!?!) to the filipinos, i'm not allowed to go outside just by myself. You know, i could be kidnapped or raped or soemthing.Because im tall and white. ugh. (oh how my family trust their ladnsmen)\

3. I decided to stay here for 2 months because my moms friend suggested that i should do some work here. Well, so called friend hasn't called up yet... guhreat.

4.IPIS!FCKEN IPIS!FCKEN TAGULAN OGAAWD IM GONNA DIEEEEE!!! ;___;

...*coughcough* let me translate:

Because its Rainy Seasons ,Mr.Cockroach and Friends visit often enough. And i just do not enjoy their company.

and most of all..

5. These last weeks in germany have been simply amazing. Now what sucks is that these amazing weeks ended with me getting together with an amazing guy.

PEOPLE!! SHELLY IS NOT SINGLE FOR LIFE ANYMOAR!!!

BUT WHY NOW?WHY NAOOOO??

i mean, why did i get a boyfriend just two days before im off for 2 months?? ;_;

worst. timing. ever

So yeah, i'm pissed and lonely. Anybody in the Manila Area want to meet up?

(although i guess most of you are also busy during the week...)

Popsister Wardrobe Help + Rambles

I have wayyy too many days were i wake up, open my closet and have absolutely NO IDEA what to wear.
Thats why i had the GROUNDBREAKING Ideas of 1) selling old stuff, 2) Buying new stuff and 3) printing out coords that suit my style and paste them beside my Closet.

So as i was browsing the newest Popsister a few days ago (7/2011) I found some really cute coords which are simple enough for me to wear everyday.

And since summer is coming up, i got myself a new pair of denim shorts. I really wanted to have a proper pair of washed out and distressed looking jean shorts, so i just grabbed the first pair of those i saw in our mall.

Don't get me wrong. I love them, especially the itsy parts of leoprints on the back. Its just that i was so hot for a new proper pair of denim shorts, that i just got it despite it having cost 40 Euros. Which is wayy too much than what i'd usually pay for shorts. (have i already mentioned that i'm a chronic cheapo and money saver?)

Anyways, i wore them yesterday with a new white and light lace blouse i got at h&M.
But in the end i wasn't going anywhere because our plans got cancelled, which means: more picwhore time for Shelly!

Lately, i dont feel like taking more egopics though.
I don't know if its because i realize that i always look the same or because i find the fact sad that i take more pictures of myself than of anything else.
I'm just really lazy to bring my big fat camera to events, especially since my small cute digicam just broke :( (ogawd, why do so much of my stuf break?!?! Dx)

whatever people i'm out, keep on reading this post if you care for me just whining around.
(for whatever reason)

... so some more Sentitalk
As great as the days have been before, the days after sunday were really upsetting :(
I dont know why if it was the super weird weather ( sun, rain,thunder,sun,heat,cold ogaaawd Dx) or something, but i somehow felt really upset.
And then i was super excited to go partying with my friends this week, but they cancelled because they have to work on our Yearbook. And i am in charge of our Proms programm and our team is going on veery slowly and is kinda annoying and now im scared that the Prom will be a total disaster and really embarassing because i am going to present the whole thing.
And then i just listened to some RnB and i got all upset because i suddenly had to think about people i was reaally really close with two years ago, and miss them really badly now.
I am thiiss close to contact them again, but things have turned out to be quite awkward after a big fight last year...

Question: Have you ever made up with someone or talked to someone you haven't talked with in ages?
How should i start? D':

Stuff that breaks, and i take pics of it

I've been quite busy with going out lately. Pshh'yea end of school!

I kind of feel demotivated be online. The Weather here is getting hotter and hotter and my Laptop heats up so quickly, its such a pain using it on a summers day!
Especially today was really bad, the weather basically just consisted of a mixture of hot sun, strong rain and heavy thunders. I think i felt all lazy and groggy because of that. (yea yea me ad my excuses ._.)

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I mentioned that i want to experiment more with eyeshadows right? Well, too bad, just when i decided to paint on my eyelids, my ever bilena pallete fell down and broke.

Nuuh!! D':

Its bad enough that it broke, but removing eyeshadow from the bathroom tiles is another paiiiin in the ass...ah well removing it from carpet might be a tad bit harder.
And i'm actually kinda lucky that my favorite brown-orangeish tone from this palette didn't break.

And if thats not enough, my favorite pair of sunglasses also broke on a hot day at the lake!! D:
I actually have the suspicion that it melted while i lay there to enjoy the sun. Pshh cheap H&M Quality D:

aww and i loved them alot :'(

Btw. i just joined dailybooth. In fact i snapped the Picture up there on there.
Excuse for my Sundayafternoon uniform, and please follow me on Dailybooth here

Lol, this post beeig practically only about me complaining about the weather and my broken stuff is kinda... sad xD

Rewarding myself

So i just figured...that i spend quite some time surfing through beauty and gyaru blogs lately, lurking in e_g and other comms and looking for things im considering of buying.
Ok yea, probably not any different than the things lots of you do too.

Buuuut, im not supposed to spend so much time online ( well never have been supposed to but still) without beeing productive or doing things that really have to be done.

So what i should concentrate on the next months is

Studying.my final exams are in april and i reaaally have to work hard in order to get a score which allows me to apply for the university course i want.

Doing the assignment for another course im interested in applying to (note to self : Deadline is March 29!!!)

Continuing with my weightloss, because since i've lost 10 kg a year ago i kind of went on a biiig break and neglected the new lifestyle even though i still have more 10 kgs to go.

Organise our schoolballs programm, because my friend tempted me to join the Programm commitee and now nobody is getting things done.
Ugh, i just shouldn't have joined. I've never been the active typy to begin with.

But then again, beeing more active, and less passive is something i should work on too.

And yea since i've figured that i haaardly get anything done and then do somethign half-assed last minute instead (ogod procrastinator much?!D:) i figured that i could trigger my motivation and fully make use of my potential by...tadadadumm...


...rewarding myself with cute japanese items! :D
When i get some points on my to-do list done i mean xD


What im thinking of getting myself after having done that arreee

Good and dolly kumicky-like lashes :D
Dollywink would be too too expensive to order so maybe i was thinking of


Diamond Fairy Eye or Dolly Eye lash


or maybe even mac no. 7 since its easier for me to get them ( though heavily overpriced >_>)

Dr. Schrammek BB cream

since its kinda easy for me to get too,

and finally circle lenses :D

I'm trying to decide between Eos Candy Brown or Geo Sakura Brown
they look so similar, really whats the difference??!

So, the first thing im going to reward myself for is having the assignment done. (since its the most important thing to do right now because- repeated note to myself - the deadline is March 29!!!)
And then i can be alll excited to get myself one of these rewards :D
Yea no suuuper spectacular method but still, hope this works xD

Wishe me Luckkkkk~

cool thursday, failed friday+ still Karneval

So i already maentioned karnevalsseason right?
'neways i went to my cities Karneval partytent yesterday. I was pissed that my best friend couldn't come but it was still kinda fun.
I dressed up as a last minute Sailorgirl xD
Last minute becauuuse...i actually wanted to buy a marine/navy cap, but they were allll sold out, so i just got myself the black pilot hat and hoped that people didn't mind.
Since, i dunno i thought the stripey shirt screamed SAILOR enough.
Turned out it wasn't the case though, since some people kept mistaking me for a police or even a slut.(id be quite a bad slut, considerung how much skin i showed O_o)...(which is not alot btw.!!!)
welll on to the pics!

excuse me for the mess in the room. (but ohey, its my moms room so dont blame me!!!!:D)

So yeah, yesterday was okay, was actually hoping to go to the Karnevalsparade with my bestie today but turns out she was busy with her internship.
And i didn't feel like meeting the same people as yesterday.
So i was pissed for the whole day, too pissed to do anything else instead, and was thiiiis close to throwing a pity party for myself. (exceept i cooked and did abit of homework, yay productive! :D)

Ah well, i hope tommorows gonna turn out better.

thanks for reading :)