I BLOG WHEN I'M HAPPY

..and i don't when i'm not.

I noticed that my blogging decreased when i started university. Some might think this might be due to stress and heavy studying. But its not, because, looking back i realized that i didn't do alot. I didn't listen to the lectures, didn't watch the movies ( cuz basically i was studying film studies :/) and only did the obligatory papers. I hoped for my course to turn out better in the future, thats why i gave it a chance for the second semester. But it didn't get better. I even took some Lectures about Comics, and i didn't care about it at all. This depressed me so much, it made sad and angry and all out confused. I had not a bit of Passion for my course.

Thats why, i finally decided to stop.
I don't want to graduate leaving me with the feeling of not having learned something at all.

So here i am right now, sitting in front of my laptop writing emails to Advertising Agencies, asking for available Internship spots. Next Year, I am going to apply for design courses. Which is what i wanted to do ever since School. I just didn't go that way because i thought i was made for more, i was such an ego, i thought i had to go to University instead of "only" an art school.

Well fuck it i was stupid. I just want to feel happy with what i'm doing now.

And i feel incredibly happy and relieved about finally having decided what to do. Now i just need to proove my Mom and everyone else that i can do it.


So, to end my Sentitalk and to to excuse my absence from the Bloggasphere (sp??) i'll show you what i've been up to these last months  in a quick xiuxiu meit tu photocollage

1 + 2.Karneval | 3. playing with Makeup | 4. Doc Martens i got from Chani <3 | 5. before going to Düsseldorf | 6. Puris with Friends

 1. Makeup for the Beauty fair | 2. Daniela Katzenberger at the Beauty fair | 3. Cologne | 4. Mixtas | 5. Me

 1. Sushi with Boyfie | 2. Me & Daddy | 3. My new Hair & Mommy | 4. handmade B-day cake for mom | 5.Whats left of the cake

1. Dressing room at Divisoria | 2. Wicked Oreos | 3. Inuman on Mothersday | 4. Me & my Godchild Chloe | 5. Chloe Baby <3

The last set of pics were from the Philippines, we spontaneously flew over because my dear Uncle died. It was a very sad Trip, but i'm happy to have seen my family again.

If you still read this, well thanks for still checking out my blog. I may not be the hippest or most exciting person in the world to read about, but i still appreciate alot when people listen, or well..read what i have to say or want to show.

Thanks, till next post then.

KARNEVAL

mooh! yea right, i'm back with a new post! :D

I've been busy with school papers these days so i wasn't able to post, but i already finished the bigger piece of work and only have a small paper to do left!
So with this post i just wanted to show you my look for karneval- a german holiday i already talked about here. For the Parades, i got myself a Cow Kigurumi and dressep up as.... well, cow! :D

I had so much fun playing with makeup! I had some lower lashes, but additionally drew some on manually!

At night, when going out to Party, i was BatGirl ! :D dum dum duuuum! Again, i had lots of fun trying out the look for that day, i even wore my new lenses with it.

1. Batgirl undercover mode. 2. without costume

Btw. i am thinking of getting myself a mac lipstick, any shades you can reccomend?

Sinnkrise

I'm sorry everybody for following with a more personal post. I'm glad for my blog to hit the 100 readers mark but not a post followed since then. Thats because thing is, Life is hard at the moment.

It started with a depressing phase concerning uni, and whether i really want to continue studying what i started to study. I was torn apart between studying humanities and studying design. I calmed down my panic by telling myself that i must not give up when things start to get hard, just like the saying goes "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger"
And well yeah, i need to get stronger.
I lack Discipline, Orderliness, and need to be way more confident in certain situations. I'm still so dependent on everything and everybody, i have to grow up and learn how to be independent.
Things are getting hard, i know i need to change and therefore today, tried to clear out my room of useless ballast. And oh how my room monitors the way i am. One big mess.

Well, i'm sure things are getting better someday, i just felt like blogging again, even though this may not be a very entertaining post.

Thanks for reading though.

Shelly

look what University is doing to me

Wednesdays are horrible. Got Uni from 10 to 9 and still don't get stuff done.
Meaning: I start the day like this


and at the end of the day, look like this.


I really should get my ass up and start studying harder. Things are not like in school anymore where you can already pass with only occasional listening. I need to work work work on my Workethics which are so..er, inadequate.

University is hard but i stay strong.



(ok, actually i just wanted to show of how i looked like on halloween, had lots of fun with playing with the blood :D)

The Beach! Shopping! A Wedding!

I actually wanted to avoid such all in one posts, because me myself am most of the time annoyed when those blogs i read only update once a month, but with posts of three meters length.

Do you too? well don't worry, this won't take too long to read since im too lazy to write a three meter long post, as long as im not payed or graded :p

So, What have i been up to since my last post exactly?

Well, my mother arrived, and ever since then weve gone to...

The Beach! :D

We went to Laiya, Batangas. And by the way, this fruit here is called Rambutan (which strangely reminds me of a Kids Toy Anime...) and turned out to be my new favorite fruit!

Shopping!

Me and my Cousin went to Greenhills to shop for some of her work stuff. In the end though i bought more than her xD

I just loce how the shirts i bought each give me a different look!

(btw. ich biete ein aehnliches shirt wie das oben links auf Kleiderkreisel an, wer interessiert ist klickt hier )

A Wedding! :D

We so bad, we take pics during mass :x

At the Photobooth with me, my Ma ( in gold), Her Friend, and the Bride

Actually we planned to go somewhere today too, but its pretty usual for my ma to plan things in the morning, talk abou it till afternoon, and dump the idea in the evening.

oh we're so alike.

I think thats it, collective Post turned out to be quite short ah xD

My Birthday and Ootd's

So i don't think i mentioned it on here yet, but the day after the Meetup, August 12, was my 19th Birthday!

I didn't really plan anything special though, because uhh... i pretty much suck at planning stuff ^^;; Instead, i just brought some cake to school for the children, and at night me and my cousin tagged along when a good friend and his schoolmates went out to Party at THE Club in the Philippines: Republiq!!

At first, me, my friend, my cousin and my cousins friend went to the Mall were the Club was located at.

The Mall was very exclusive and had a Casino, lots of luxury boutiques and soo much nice food places!

The outer facade of the Mall. Its actually something like a rich tourists club. O

Oh and it was fullmoon!

The inside of the Mall

Me, Cousin Leli and her Friend

Inside the Club

The DJ's

We made lots of more pics but i don't know most of the people in the pics too well yet, so i'll refrain from posting pics wtih them right now;

neways, lets get to the point : I had a great Time!! :D

Heres a fullbody shoot of my outfit...(although not so clear)

I dont know why i decided to dress so simple, everyone there was so styled up!!

I basically want to go for the cool look, but a mini skirt would have definitely made this more Republiq worthy...

and while im at it, the outfit on the right is the one i wore on the mini gyaru meet.

In both coords i wear the same top, accecosories and boots.

Neways guys, jus finished skyping with boyfie and i should go to sleep now.

Byee

Job, Clothes and Lense Rambles

Guyys, i got a job! :D

So, today was my first day at a private preschool here in my neighbourhood, the jobs only voluntarily but hey, at least i've got something to do, and i feel like doing something meaningful!
The School is soo cute! And oh my god the children are so lovely! I remember having a super big grin on my face when they all came into the classrom, and then rushing outside in order to do some supercute morning workouts and afterwards singing the philippine national anthem!

Lets see how the next days are going to turn out, i can't wait to get to know each of the children and everyone else there better! :)

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Annyyyways, next week im going to meet up with two of my favorite filipino Bloggers Yapo and Meoki! And other gyaru interested girls i haven't gotten to know yet are coming too! Sooo excited ~
I still have no Idea what to wear so heres some easy Inspiration i got from the latest popsister.
(...easy, because i practically have most of these pieces in my luggage already)

so what i have in my baggage out of these pics is a military shirt, a cream colored dress, a denim vest, a little black dress and distressed jeans.

I really want to start going shopping now thoughhhhh, ugh... i hate this lacking mobility =__=

I can't wait to start dolling up again, because really, i look like super simple and super humble everyday. And also, considering the hot and humid weather here, my mood to get pretty every morning pretty much drops everytime my make up smudges or removes itself .__.

I also ordered new circle lenses, because my old Barbie King Size Brown (old?wth i had them only for about 2 months ;_;) broke back in Germany...

Ah well, anyways i decided to get myself their little sister, the Geo Angel browns then instead... maybe they'll make me feel less creepy than the Barbie ones..

ah well, maybe next posts will have some egopics again...i figured that i havent posted any of these lately;;

ah well till then :)

Hello Philippines, Shellys here and ranting!

okay okay peoples,you might (or might not..) want to know : i changed locations!I had my Flight this Tuesday and am now residing in the ever tropic Philippine Islands!

Okay, nothing really special since i'm here like, twice a year...but this time im not going to stay here for 2 or 3 weeks, but for whooping 2 MONTHS!!!

and uhh.. well, usually i'd be happy about beeing able to spend so much time with my dear family, buuut things pretty much suck right now becauuuse

1. My Family is super Busy. My cousin i live with is at school til 9 pm and afterwards still has to do schoolwork.

2. I am super isolated. Me beeing the "americano" (people why dont you just get that im not american!!?!) to the filipinos, i'm not allowed to go outside just by myself. You know, i could be kidnapped or raped or soemthing.Because im tall and white. ugh. (oh how my family trust their ladnsmen)\

3. I decided to stay here for 2 months because my moms friend suggested that i should do some work here. Well, so called friend hasn't called up yet... guhreat.

4.IPIS!FCKEN IPIS!FCKEN TAGULAN OGAAWD IM GONNA DIEEEEE!!! ;___;

...*coughcough* let me translate:

Because its Rainy Seasons ,Mr.Cockroach and Friends visit often enough. And i just do not enjoy their company.

and most of all..

5. These last weeks in germany have been simply amazing. Now what sucks is that these amazing weeks ended with me getting together with an amazing guy.

PEOPLE!! SHELLY IS NOT SINGLE FOR LIFE ANYMOAR!!!

BUT WHY NOW?WHY NAOOOO??

i mean, why did i get a boyfriend just two days before im off for 2 months?? ;_;

worst. timing. ever

So yeah, i'm pissed and lonely. Anybody in the Manila Area want to meet up?

(although i guess most of you are also busy during the week...)

Outfit updates+ After Prom Life

I feel good. The Days after Prom have been as awesome as Prom itself, seriously i've been out almost everday lately and have so much fun! But because i spend so much time with nights out chilling at the River, i turned out to be a bit lazy style wise.
So all in all i can only present you two coords, for..well the last two weeks xD

Its getting hotter and hotter each day and i might need to stop wearing my beloved boots...
Anybody know some good summer boots?


Oh i love chilling at the rhine. Even though there was a big firewors festival in Cologne, we just stayed in out river and watched from there.
Do you have any favorite places to hang out in?

tell me i'm curious :)


...wow, short post was short.

Good Bye, Chaos Class of 2011

My Year is full of loud and annoying Idiots. People who don't know how to stay organized or how to act mature and responsible. They vandalize rooms and love drawing penises on the walls and blackboards. Theire abunch of immature monkeys.

But oh my god, i'll miss this bunch of monkeys so badly.

Yesterday i had my Prom which i was so nervous about the last couple of weeks. Planning the whole thing was such a mess, the whole thing could have gone wrong just as well.
But luckily it didn't. Which is pretty typical of my year. Were always procrastinating, late and chaotic and doing stuff but when it's getting serious, things always work out somehow.
Anyways, the Prom was a success!I was the Mc for the first half of the Programme and everyone told me i did a great job. I was really nervous and hadn't planned anything in particular either, so most of the things i said were more or less improvised.
At the end of the Programm, we went out to a club to party! I had a truly amazing time!

All mushy -i'll miss school- talk aside, here some pics of me showcasing my wonderful dress and my wonderful schoolmates!

I had great 3 years.

Raiding the school...and my Moms closet! :D

As lame as last week was, this week is quite busy. Lots of Prom and Finalgag to manage.

On Wednesday we went to the Wholesale Market to look for stuff we need for Prom, this is what i wore.

When i looked at the second outfit of my post here, the first thing that came to my mind was my moms vest. My mom got it herself a long time ago, but since she never wore it i decided to just proclaim it to be mine. Sometimes, you can really find Treasures in Parents closets, right? Thats why i decided to just go and raid her closet!Do you sometimes raid your Parents Closet too?

When my mom just bought the vest i wasnt too keen on it though, but then again, my taste in Clothes used to be very questioable to begin with...

But now i really have to say that i don't even want to return it to my mom now! In my oppinion, this Vest really spices up an outfit. So on the same day later at night, i wore it too to go clubbing!

Which outfit do you prefer? The one i just posted earlier, or this one?

Going clubbing was pretty fun, especially since i was still really pissed about the bucket of fail that was last week, so going out again definitely raised my mood!
I got home at 6 in the morning and slept in till 4 in the afternoon (!!), after which i quickly had to go to school to help out at our Finalgag preparations! :D

In german Schools, those people who graduate and just had their final exams have a day where they terrorize the school! Meaning: They play pranks on teacher and younger students, mess up the classrooms and party! :D Since our Gag is tommorow, we got into the school today to load the teachers lounge with balloons and mess up the halls and classrooms!
Heres a sneak peek of what we did

'chhyea so excited about tommorow! :D

Popsister Wardrobe Help + Rambles

I have wayyy too many days were i wake up, open my closet and have absolutely NO IDEA what to wear.
Thats why i had the GROUNDBREAKING Ideas of 1) selling old stuff, 2) Buying new stuff and 3) printing out coords that suit my style and paste them beside my Closet.

So as i was browsing the newest Popsister a few days ago (7/2011) I found some really cute coords which are simple enough for me to wear everyday.

And since summer is coming up, i got myself a new pair of denim shorts. I really wanted to have a proper pair of washed out and distressed looking jean shorts, so i just grabbed the first pair of those i saw in our mall.

Don't get me wrong. I love them, especially the itsy parts of leoprints on the back. Its just that i was so hot for a new proper pair of denim shorts, that i just got it despite it having cost 40 Euros. Which is wayy too much than what i'd usually pay for shorts. (have i already mentioned that i'm a chronic cheapo and money saver?)

Anyways, i wore them yesterday with a new white and light lace blouse i got at h&M.
But in the end i wasn't going anywhere because our plans got cancelled, which means: more picwhore time for Shelly!

Lately, i dont feel like taking more egopics though.
I don't know if its because i realize that i always look the same or because i find the fact sad that i take more pictures of myself than of anything else.
I'm just really lazy to bring my big fat camera to events, especially since my small cute digicam just broke :( (ogawd, why do so much of my stuf break?!?! Dx)

whatever people i'm out, keep on reading this post if you care for me just whining around.
(for whatever reason)

... so some more Sentitalk
As great as the days have been before, the days after sunday were really upsetting :(
I dont know why if it was the super weird weather ( sun, rain,thunder,sun,heat,cold ogaaawd Dx) or something, but i somehow felt really upset.
And then i was super excited to go partying with my friends this week, but they cancelled because they have to work on our Yearbook. And i am in charge of our Proms programm and our team is going on veery slowly and is kinda annoying and now im scared that the Prom will be a total disaster and really embarassing because i am going to present the whole thing.
And then i just listened to some RnB and i got all upset because i suddenly had to think about people i was reaally really close with two years ago, and miss them really badly now.
I am thiiss close to contact them again, but things have turned out to be quite awkward after a big fight last year...

Question: Have you ever made up with someone or talked to someone you haven't talked with in ages?
How should i start? D':

Stuff that breaks, and i take pics of it

I've been quite busy with going out lately. Pshh'yea end of school!

I kind of feel demotivated be online. The Weather here is getting hotter and hotter and my Laptop heats up so quickly, its such a pain using it on a summers day!
Especially today was really bad, the weather basically just consisted of a mixture of hot sun, strong rain and heavy thunders. I think i felt all lazy and groggy because of that. (yea yea me ad my excuses ._.)

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I mentioned that i want to experiment more with eyeshadows right? Well, too bad, just when i decided to paint on my eyelids, my ever bilena pallete fell down and broke.

Nuuh!! D':

Its bad enough that it broke, but removing eyeshadow from the bathroom tiles is another paiiiin in the ass...ah well removing it from carpet might be a tad bit harder.
And i'm actually kinda lucky that my favorite brown-orangeish tone from this palette didn't break.

And if thats not enough, my favorite pair of sunglasses also broke on a hot day at the lake!! D:
I actually have the suspicion that it melted while i lay there to enjoy the sun. Pshh cheap H&M Quality D:

aww and i loved them alot :'(

Btw. i just joined dailybooth. In fact i snapped the Picture up there on there.
Excuse for my Sundayafternoon uniform, and please follow me on Dailybooth here

Lol, this post beeig practically only about me complaining about the weather and my broken stuff is kinda... sad xD